Fear

What am I afraid of? Usually what you think of me..Ii was told by a very wise man that "what other people think of me is none of my business."  Knowing that and being able to apply it are 3 different things. I inherently want people to like me, well....love me even. No matter how badly they hurt me. I keep going back expecting, no, demanding, that they change to suit my life. This leads me to the feel good theory.....I will obsess trying to reach feeling good...no matter how bad it makes me feel.